Resolutions

No ‘resolutions’ for me. I hate ‘to do’ lists. There are some things I want to spend time doing in the year ahead, but they are more like aspirations than they are resolutions.

“To resolve” to do something is to set oneself up for failure because the very sound of the phrase has such a determined impetus to it. I do plan and do anticipate but I’m not a determined person.

If resolve and determination are not my motivating dynamic, what does move me ahead? I do not experience myself as pushed, propelled or driven into my future, rather I am drawn to opportunities and enticed by possibilities. Just as this blank page invites me to line it with words that are unknown, even to me, until they chatter from the keyboard, so an anticipated but unfilled page on my calendar offers me empty time and space to populate with actions and punctuate with ideas and meanings. I am more beckoned by tomorrow than I am urged by a list of yet-to-be-done demands.

I hope to breathe life into 2015 with attention to becoming a better writer, with desire to improve as a weaver on my floor loom, by maintaining my health and by being of benefit to others. These are my New Year’s Aspirations.

Later this year I’ll be 75 years old. That’s three-quarters of a century! Three-quarters of a century is a long time. I guess I think of myself as long-lived rather than as old. “Old’ is a description that denotes and connotes “worn,” “decrepit,” “outdated,” and “useless.” I experience myself as none of those. Rather I see myself as ‘sturdy,” “experienced,” travelled,” “sage,” and “practiced.” All these latter descriptions say “long-lived.”

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  1. Jeff Nguyen

    Once upon a time elders were conferred with the ultimate respect and veneration in their respective societies. Now, being elderly has a connotation of having one foot in the nursing home and the other in the grave.

    I prefer to consider you an elder with all of the wisdom, hope and experience the title entails. Best to you in the new year.

    • Thanks, Jeff! By the way, I also appreciate having my irreverance noticed and lauded (other readers, see Jeff’s blog) as I have done nothing publicly pious for more than a decade! My sole relationship with organized religion is my pension, i.e., back-pay.

  2. Fahy Mullaney

    I like the “long-lived” self understanding and plan to employ it.
    Among your interesting aspirations I see nothing related to bird watching.

  3. yeah- definitely not old. Your definitions are best. Happy 2015 and many more.

  4. C. Joseph

    Dear long-lived, much loved bro: You are the Real Deal. Thanks be to…., well you know!

    Joe

    _____

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